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Vanity. was written at 22 Mar 07 - 20:48 |
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Is it biting the had that feeds me (financially) if I speak out against my boyfriend? Because if it is, then I guess I am; I think he's absolutely lying to me. There are more holes in his story than something that has a lot of holes in it. He brought home the official police report, which is about 20 pages long, and said something very closely along the lines of "Look through it, it made me feel better." Now I don't know if he's just scared senseless or stupid, but reading it did the opposite for me. Not only did it raise numerous red flags (pertaining to references where he personally vocally basically admitted his guilt on tape) and cause me to want to ask a lot more questions (which I cannot do because when I ask him about it he immediately shuts down and spits out apology after apology and makes me feel bad for bringing it up or even question him at all.), but I know this whole thing is going to end up resulting in jeopardizing his and my life. Every time I write some entry on this dumb-ass site, where I think the most insane thing is happening to me, LOL OMG it always becomes out shadowed by future events. It's really like, how fucking low can I dig myself in life? All the while constantly striving for something better. Every month that passes makes me feel more and more like this life is the biggest, sickest joke that is beyond words, and thus could never be translated into the perfect bar joke; and that, my friends, is the greatest tragedy. I mean if my life was lived so that drunkards for a few decades could swoon a few unsuspecting maidens, well then my life would not have be lived in vain.
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